Saturday, 11 April 2020

Confidence(-cial)

Hey guys, i'm back again with another write up

So today well like any other day i was try to submit me assignment. I HATE IT. 
Its weird how i like reading but hate doing assignment.
Any who..... so today i realized something i lacked confidence. Yes there are times i dress up and i'm like "hmmmmmmmm, damn girl you look fiiiiiirrrreeeeeee " but there are days when i'm like "oh my goddd, i look like a fucking clown*insert crying emoji*"

Also my makeup. I just felt like since it wasn't as good as the girls on Instagram and YouTube i was very very insecure that it wasn't pretty or good enough. Then i watched some movies like Tall Girl, My ID is a Gangnam Beauty amongst others.

The true is slowly but not yet i am and i will continue to build my confidence. And i hope i will keep up with this because i am a lazy person even when it comes to emotions. 

Okay if you are a mum start from when your kids are still little and can't read. You can build their confidence by telling them every morning "You are so pretty" or if a kid in class is bullying them you teach them to stand up for themselves, you can meet the kids parents. And if your kid gets into a fight and he gets in trouble and he/she is not at fault. Support them, treat them to ice cream later and always ALWAYS trust and believe your kids.

If you are a teenager, do things like if someone insults you about something you don't like talk back at them about something they don't like, like in the movie Tall Girl they would always ask her 'How's the weather up there' in that kind of situation you can say 'Oh the weather here is nice. How does it feel like to be one with the ground' or something along the line. It may or may not backfire but its a start. Also see you for you, not anyone else; i know its easier said than done but little things like "oh i might not be as pretty as _______(whoever) but at least i don't have pimples or acne scars or blackheads". once you start it isn't easy but at least you are putting effort. Slowly and i mean S-L-O-W-L-Y (like a sloth) you'll see the difference and the fact that you'll like yourself just more than before.

TBH people do not know it means to keep things a secret. I know a girl that can sit you down and tell you her entire life and family history like its nothing. That's another thing with confidence comes talkativity, that's where confidentiality comes in. When you lack confidence you build this little bubble that keeps you safe, once you start to gain confidence you slowly leave the bubble. Here's the catch once you leave that bubble, you meet all kinds of people big, small, nice, rude etc and normally you don't know how to react to it, some people ted to talk... A lot if not too much and at some point they have nothing to talk about. They start spilling out secrets (anyone's that they know of) like freaking tap.

The problem is you are trying to impress those people which will gain you nothing and when something blows up on you, you go back to that bubble and make it tinier. when you leave your bubble the first thing to do is to list out what you like and dislike. I mean like, for example, you don't like when people make fun of you for their own entertainment, you like when people listen to your problems etc. THAT IS WHAT YOU DO.

P-E-R-I-O-D.

I will stop here because i am not used to typing for so long, my fingers hurt.

안녕 :-) (cause i'm a dork B-))

Thursday, 9 April 2020

Plain Koko(going)nutz

Okayyyyyyyyy
i'm doing this because this is the year 2020 (yay me *sarcasm*) and a new virus is killing people.... a lot of people. So to keep everyone safe governments have decided that everyone stay inside their house-since the virus is airborne and very very contagious(seriously you can't clear your throat in public without people around you bringing out hand sanitizers)- so it is known as lock down or self isolation or whatever. I honestly feel like this is a punishment to us humans from God, most especially me cause i didnt put my heart into prayer cross over night (God i am truly and absolutely sorry)
Moving on I am a university student and I can tell you a 1000000000000000% I do NOT know what I am doing, I study law and........ oh yes I school in Nigeria cause I am Nigerian (yay me *sarcasm*). Its not that i hate it (maybe a little) but ever since i was born i just wanted to go abroad or overseas and stay there and never come back(*deep sigh*). Ok the point i am heading to, apparently my school is one of the best schools in Nigeria and during this lock down i took it upon myself to read butttt i'm given assignment to do and although i am doing them, they just keep pilling and pilling and its frustrating because i can't read. And NO i cannot read while doing an assignment.It really irks me!
Since i was young i have liked makeup and fashion but that's not really a thing to study in Nigeria sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo *shrugs shoulders* that's a dead dream but i still do makeup. learn makeup and stuffzzz. 
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh all this typing hurts me fingerssssss
YES i like k-pop(안녕하세요 여러븐, 잘 지넸어요?), and food. i don't know what else to type soooooooo what now???













*mental breakdown*









Having a blog is harder than it sounds or look. okay this is all i can do because my thinking capacity just stopped and i am tired. 
Well i have social media accounts but i'm not active on them for some reason. i'll talk about them later. 
BYE  

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